The things I left behind

Chloez

When I thought that i had done my best for us..

Reading other's people blog entries really reminds me a lot of my past relationship.

Take for example Kenny Sia *one of the famous blogger in Msia* and Samantha*his ex*,

I admire Samantha i must to say

In her post "When My Best Isn't Your Best"

I can see how much courage that she took to let go

Like her,

I think that I haven't been giving HIM enough credit too

that's why both of us has to wind up our relationship

After so much time

I admit its hell hard to not even thinking bout him for one day

I have been blogging so much bout how i felt

untill some1 said i blog too much bout my past

to make it clear,

my blog is where im gona pour all my troubles, happy & sad moment and all those stuff

This is to remind me what i have been going thru

and i get to jot down every single steps that i took in life

the next time when im gona read it all over again,

at least it will remind me of something which i might had forgotten

or had took for granted

Stop criticising or commenting that my blog is so and so and so ok?

Who hasnt been heartbroken before?

It's just a part of life.

And i just had a chapter of mine ended in an inappropriate way

the pain is inevitable

ever since broke up

i had heard lotsa consoling words

such as

be brave,

time will heals ur pain,

Don't fret over it too much.

u could find a better man,

i do appreciate it seriously

but

Im getting sick of those line

Perhaps i just have to learn to become who i am years ago by myself

with no helps from anyone

Perhaps single experience could teach me to be a better partner

I took the chance that i had most of the time

to recall and contemplate what both us had done

i used to blame u

but alas i find there's no1 right no1 wrong

neither HIM nor me should be blamed

both of us has the different definition for L.O.V.E

love is that selfish afterall

only loser like me still clinging over the past

looking at how fine he is doing after our breakup,

but me still floating aimlessly,

forgone so much

aint dare to be in any relationship

its rili makes me sounds like a fool isnt it

i dont wana sounds like i cant live my life without him

but i rili want him to know that im always here for him

i have changed

and i would give up everythg on this world jus to love him

i miss the moments we used to have

Often,

I shared a part of my thought, my feeling with Su Ee

but noone actually really know how i am feeling

when losing the one I wanted

when the one I love took me for granted

everythg i have got get destroyed in just a moment

tears breakdown for countless night

but

Love wont happens if he nvr appear in my life

At least I have loved him and have him to love me in return

although it isnt everlasting

Happy days were always limited

Loving someone doesnt mean to need him by myside or to own him

but to see him happy n blissful is enuf.

i guess i will be happy someday

when i stop asking myself what is happiness

Sometime i find that even me myself cant understand what i wan

im pretty sure my love for HIM never change..99% sure

argh.. should just focus on any other things as long as its not love

4 days left before leavin the year 08

seems like a lot of ppl start blogin bout whats their resolution for new year and such

im gona skip that

cus im not the type that stick to the slogan "PLAN AHEAD FOR A BETTER FUTURE"..

i might do that but just for the starting

my passionate over somethg is limited

but one funny thg is that

im devoted to HIM

wonder why..

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Chlo_e at 12/27/2008 09:37:00 PM

Sleepless night

Night and nights of Imsomnia..

without anyone by myside..

msg sum1 but alas it seems like no topic to talk about..

so decided to turn into silence mode..

leaving me myself alone,

drowning in lotsa lotsa problem..

not about working..

and definitely not studying..

thinking over the same thing again and all over again..

wondering when could all this stop..

Xmas day,

In the half way of msging,

he pop up a question.

Am i willing to be his gf.

My eyes are reading,

my heart feels nothg.

and alas i smiled

not bcos im happy

its bcos i dono how to answer

i admit sometime life could be very lonely

but i had enough of everytg

i want to take no more

cus im afraid my heart aint tat strong

to take the blow for another time

He asked me isit bcos of Jon

I pretended and asked him what has Jon got to do with me

But deep inside my heart im yelling for a yes

Then i kept the question hanging there.

It could be good this way

Both parties wont end up in bleeding heart

Im afraid to lose

so im gona take no risk

I love the feeling of being loved of cos

but being in love with sum1 i dun love

is totally a crap.

I dont dare to say no

cus im afraid i might regret

i missed the opportunity before

and regretted somehow sumway

am i going to go through the same thg again?

i hope not

God

im really tired

i dont wish to be in this way anymore

I just wana lead my life the way i do

with my beloved friend surrounding me

totally free from love life

if u want to give me sum1

i would rather

it to be the same person whom i never give up all this while.

Y cant just girl and boy be friend?

all couple start with friendship

but how many actually back to the square wen they break up

can couple return back to friendship?

if u aint 100% sure it would

y bother to start at first

tat's somethg i neve think of and neglected in the past

if i would by tat time

then i wouldnt step one of my leg into the grave of love..

love is blind

it makes u sacrifice without any reason

give in without any limit

but in return

its a cut in the heart,

memories left all over in the place both of us stopped b4,

memories of warmth and love,

memories of hugs and kisses,

memories of holding hands,

memories of one-moment-of-forever,

one moment of eternity love.

God

I pass my heart to u

shall let u decide on my feelings

I pass my fate to u

shall let u decide on my next step

I pass my future to u

which im sure u would grant me happiness

Nothg would be more important than having my prayers granted

Road to work everyday

which passes the temple

would never make me failed to pray

the scene seems kept repeating

everyday

same road

same purpose of passing by that road

same temple

same prayers.

i would never stop

til u grant me my wish.

Santa

u r not granting my wish this year

perhaps im too naughty

perhaps im not being a goodgirl

i dont blame u santa

still i haf to thank u for some moment tat u gave to me for xmas tis year

sumhow i tink its a moment of humiliation

sumhow i tink its a kind of bless too

i dono

i guess i think too much

Xmas 2008 start with meeting the same person ended with the same person too

anyhoo

thx for those who texted me tat nite.

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Chlo_e at 12/26/2008 09:35:00 PM

Can i have my prayers come true?

Pengalaman mengajarku

Jangan mudah meluahkan isi hatiku

Tapi bila ia melamarku

Senyuman ayumu

hatiku luas terbuka

Yang kuidamkan musnah

Yang kugenggam terpisah

Aku pernah, jatuh cinta

Kerana cinta diriku merana

Aku pernah bahagia

Kata manisnya buat ku terpedaya

Biarkan aku temankan pilu

Haruskah cinta oh kejam padaku

Kini mula ku terasakan

Degupan hatiku mula rasa oh gelisah

Kehadiranmu ku mengharapkan

Akan menghilangkan kegelapan di hidupku

Kau yang seharus yang pertama

Agar terakhir selamanya

Yang ku lupa, kisah yang lalu

Akan ku gubah oh hidup yang baru

Kerana aku pernah... pernah yeah...

Kisah yang lama mengajar aku

Agar bahagia hidup bersamamu

Hey hey

Yang ku cinta

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Chlo_e at 12/23/2008 09:55:00 PM

XmaS Prezzie~

About a month ago everyone in our little uni gang are alarmed with an e-mail from dear Edina.. Belows are an extract of the e-mail that i have got.

"Christmas is on its way. Are you in the spirit yet? We're gonna have a christmas party!!! Yay! Of course, when its christmas, there's always gifts. Each and everyone of us are to prepare gifts for someone within our group. To make things even more fun, we're going to draw names from a box to see who we're going to give a present too. So when you choose the name, you must keep it a secret and only reveal yourself on the actual day of the party alongside your gift you prepared. To draw out the names, were gonna have lunch together"..

Being unable to attend the lunch, Yu An and I became the last two to draw the names... Yu An 2nd last & me the LAST.. Yu An send me the envelope with the last name in it under heavy rains...I think almost everyone know who i have got to prepare a present for including that person himself.. cos he happened to draw out his own name and have to exchange with the last piece of name.. Thx to Andrien for cheating wen he 1st drew Yu An's name..

hmmph..

It really give me a big headache of what to give.. Wana know why? It's bcos this 18 years old boy's family owned lotsa shops which sell omos everythg.. I think he lacks nothg.. he has big car, big house, big shop, everytg big..And he has a pretty gf whom he treat like little princess..

So after considering of getting him somthg like home deco thingy or stuff like photo frame,, uhh.. he has got a lot in his shop la.. Rili at my wit's end liao.. After hard works of searching here and there, i came about to buy a little special necklace.. which is not easily be found owh..

And of course i have my own reason why i am giving him this.. Since he dotes on his gf so much, i shall give somthg which could be shared between this two sweet couples..

Da dang~~ It became a perfect love once it's joint ^^

Mae the love of Yu An & his gurl last forever...

You wont know hard isit to buy present for someone who is rich and lack of nothg in his life.. Although my present is not something that come in 3 o 4 figures, it is still expensive than some pressie i saw last night..lol.. not humiliating any1's present here.. anyway, its the thought that counts ryt?

Special present of cos has to come in better way of presentation.To match up with the Xmas theme, finally found a sack which our happy Santa is sleeping on it.. Do we call it a sack? I have no idea. *grin*.. Anyway, hope every1 is liking the present they have got last nite.. Ho Ho Ho.. Merry Xmas!

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Chlo_e at 12/22/2008 04:15:00 PM

Hearty mighty^^

Was reading other's blog about the reunion dinner for ex-townians a moment ago.. well, quite envy the friendship spirit that all of them possessed.. despite being split out for our own future, they still came together whenever they have the chance. Salute^^ Most of our class population was scattered all around Malaysia. Dont tink that there's any that is leaving to overseas yet.. Some went to UTP, some to UTAR, one to Taylor, some off to Matrix and the *poor* rest are still here in hometown pursueing our degree or form 6.. well, at least we are near to our family.. celebrating all the occasion at home sweet home without needing to be independent outside there =) Cant deny that of course i envy the life they are having, but since i cant change the reality of i might have to stuck in Kuching for the rest 10 years, i might as well be optimistic isnt it?

After having their reunion, Ning Jian and Joshua came to fetch me and Su Ee out.. I really thank god for letting me to have a friend like them. Never failed to miss us out everytime after their re-union.. =) Really thankful to have them as my bestfriends ever.. After so much ups and downs, we were still standing together as close friends.. despite that we didnt meet up that often a moment or two, despite that one is studying in west Malaysia, despite we always have to undergo the situation of departing with each other, despite we may have a little or more argument sometimes, despite we are all as stubborn as a bull, despite that we often argue over stupid things, despite that we are having some misunderstanding one or twice before, I pray that our friendship will be as strong as the great wall of China.. hope that we can go through thick and thin forever.. I repeat, FOREVER! I know that our friendship can resembles the states of standing on a wet cement.. which the longer we stood on it, the harder for all of us to leave and we can never go without leaving our footprints in each other hearts =)

To Su Ee, sometimes when both of us are quiet, I knew there's a lot of things running in ur mind. Me, being over sensitive sometimes, really feel like the moment of silence might get our distance farway someday somehow. So remember to speak out what's in ur mind if u have problem or what yea.. best buddy forever i promise.. i wont be the moon i swear..cos i dun wana be that round=) Lame.. haha.. U know what, the news of you going back to Brunei rili make me stunned for a moment. what more to say, the news isnt coming from u yourself.. well, promise stayed as a promise.. u wont noe how much i wanted u,ning jian, joshua and me mysef to be the first to wish each other a merry xmas and happy new year when the time strikes at 12 a.m.. but it's ok.. afterall, family always have to be first.. wish u have a nice break there yea..

To Ning Jian, u rili brings a lot of laughter into our life.. ur non-stop talking(starting from the moment i went into the car til u drop me down back to home again) could be quite annoying sometimes but that's not ur weakness.. its vice versa.. thats why when u head off to study, the moment of loneliness can be felt among us.. the news of u coming back never fail to give us a smile.. a wide one indeed.. Sometimes both of us might have some arguement, but i din put it to heart at all la.. so don owes say me "xiao qi" anymore ok?? Ur changes in behaviour for the previous time wen u having ur raya holiday break in Kuching, rili breaks our heart.. Keep putting us aeroplane, messaging the particular someone non-stop when ur out with us.. but things get better this round.. hehe.. The moments we shared within the year will be kept in my heart.. Hope there's more coming up next =)

To Joshua, sometimes distance problem really linger on between us.. Cus u have to back to Matang and we always make last minute decision to go out, u r always left out.. Do remember Joshua, u r always a part of us.. dont always say only 3 of us (ning jian, su ee and I) nia are close.. u r not excluded dude.. without u, our friendship will not be incomplete.. I never forget ur words.. remmber u told me u have completely lost faith in friendship? Dont worry dude.. with a friend like me, i will try my best to prove to u that true friend does exist.. despite that im always so lazy to pick u up even though u are at Stampin..hehe.. waiting for the day for u to pick me and Su Ee up liao.. lol.. Being a "gossip king" in 5A *if im not mistaken* u never fail to update us with all sorts of gossips.. but i dont hope that there's a day that i heard u gossiping bout me ok?

~The moments shared are always kept in heart~

I doubt Ning Jian and Joshua are going to read this.. nvm la.. for sure there will be a day they might read this accidentally.. fate shall decide..lol.. Ok, back to the after reunion story.. Was soundly asleep until the "Jingle Bell" song wake me up around 12 something. Took the risk to sneak out of my house in the middle of night.. that wasnt the first time after all.. open and close the door in thief's action..*grins* scared that i might wake my dad up. then world war 3 gona begin =) That night was damn cold man.. was shivering in Ning Jian's car..we went off to airport for McD.. stayed there for a long chit-chat.. and not to miss out ghost story as well.. was terribly scared until us, 3 gals(JOJo, Su Ee and I), sharing one toilet room to answer the nature call.. hehe.. we end the night with shocked moment when our driver for the night saw a white sheet of paper on the car's wiper.. DANG!! kena saman liao lo.. soi enough.. Went back home around 3 something.. and only manage to sleep after 4 somethings after staring at the ceilings for hours..

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Chlo_e at 12/21/2008 08:59:00 PM

Happy Dong Zhi =)

It's blogging time again.. I knew my blog is damn boring lately but rili ran out of idea of what to write so just post up my daily routines.. Happy Dong Zhi 3veryone.. My dong zhi celebration was just that fine, doing annual routine ( pray to the ancestor, having re-union lunch with grandparents).. got stomach upset for the time being.. duh..

Chinese's tradition.. wasnt dare to take more picture.. in case somethg extra appear in it.. Lols

My mood today was considered so so until i heard the fortune analysis for the year 2009.. =( seems like my fortune ( all those born in the horse years to be exact) for this and next year are quite teribble. Im not being superstitious here but part of the analysis rili match my current fortune lo.. wat make me down is that it says in year 2009, the distant between me and the person i love would get far and farther.. haiz.. i guess its true.. anyway, i just hope my prayers are being answered.. i want not much.. just want him to be happy..if there is fate between us, then we shall meet..

Sometimes being superstitious is not a bad thing afterall.. At least we can get ourself guarded.. so to those who was born in the same year as I do, may all of us walk through the year 2009 with full of luck and bless..

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Chlo_e at 12/21/2008 08:01:00 PM

Double greetings~

It's "Dong Zhi" festival tomorrow.. Dong Zhi Kuai Le everyone.. Lets talk a bit on wads this festival about.. in case some of u might only know how to eat "tang yuan" but dono wads the history and purpose of it..Dong Zhi, which literally means "arrival of winter", is the thanksgiving of the Chinese calendar.. Anyway, there's a saying or "beliefs" that says if it rains on this day, then it would not rain during chinese new year.. lols.. find it quite ,, ridiculous.. but then it might be true??

Tang Yuan symbolise unity and harmony within the family.. Didnt have chance to make any this year T.Y when i went home sis oredi done all the thg.. so i only have chance to eat nia lo.. I dun rili noe hw to eat tang yuan actually, cos kinda too elastic.. cant find a better word for it.. hehe.. Was celebrating dong zhi wit my aunt in Spore last year.. S'pore's tang yuan rili different from the 1 here lo.. i prefer the 1 there.. yummy..wish i have the chance to eat it again..

Xmas cuming up next!!! weehex.. so excited .. hehe.. Santa oh santa i want nothg but happiness.. that's the best give i knew u could give.. santa can u hear me?? Too bad my darling Su Ee not gona be here for the countdown..sad...

Merry Xmas everyone!!!! *hehe..i noe its stil early la..but cnt help..im too excited dy*

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Chlo_e at 12/20/2008 10:13:00 PM

You're all to me

I saw your face in a crowded place,

And I don't know what to do,

'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, he caught my eye,

As we walked on by,

And I don't think that I'll see him again,

But we shared a moment that will last till the end

But it's time to face the truth,

I will never be with you.

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Chlo_e at 12/19/2008 11:26:00 PM

TGIF!

Finally it comes to the days that i could rest on my warm bed without have to force myself destroying my sweet dreams ,waking up early in the morning^^ Life has been in working mode for tuesday,wednesday, thursday and friday. Went a while to Eric's bdae celebration on Wednesday night. Im sorry I went there empty-handed dude. Promise i'll not repeat the mistake next year. *if im still here living on this world.lols* At the same time, here's my apologies to Swinb gang too for not making to the dinner. Went home bout 11 sumtg. Then out again for movie. Actually that night was for movie. But decided to attend Eric's bdae party at Richmond so get things delayed alas. Then Ning Jian was addicted to pools when we are at Jalan Song .*well that happen very often.blah* Match after match, i was freaking tired already so decided not to wait and go home. Followed Ing Siong's car home. Who knows afta tat dude finish his pool, then he remember me. Felt quite awkward to say no to him. Later he say me "kek ex" again. After all Im the one who want to watch movie tat day. So he pick me up agen then heeded to pik up Joshua. *Luckili dad was soundly asleep,,*grins**Went to Open Air for podridge before movie. But too bad its not operating for business.. What a disappoinment. Was craving for it for a long time dy. End up two of them eating only. Sat there like an idiot and watching them eat. That place is fuc*ing dirty man. The rat run here and there to pick up food. Kuching oh Kuching. Ish ish..

Watched "The Day The Earth Stood Still".. Find it quite boring. Was asleep half way. Perhaps im too tired. Or maybe cus its my sleeping time. It has been since a long time i last watched movie late at night. was waiting eagerly for the whole movie to finish up so that i can go back home i sleep on my bed.. when i reach home * 3something in the morning* , i was really too tired to do anythg so... without changing my clothes or even brush my teeth, i jump onto the bed and sleep til 730 the next morning. *chuckles*

The next day, Thursday was the most tired that out of all. Cos i only managed to get few hours sleep. Then having class from 9am to 3pm, 3.20pm to 5.20pm, and 7.30pm to 9.00 pm. Crazy man. Damn exhausted by the end of the day. U must be thinking " Am i that desperate for money?". If you are, then u are definitely wrong. Im left with no choice. Students want to have class, i cant probably saying "No, I dont feel like having class today". Im professional one ok. Haha. A teacher like me where to find? They want to cut hair, I bring them go saloon too. *At last me myself oso get a haircut. * Student want to buy books. I helped them buy. Student want to buy swimming suit, i accompany her go The Spring to look for it. End up shopping there too. Shopping during class time? Muahaha... Not bad leh this job.. Can half earn money, half shopping.. *grins* So at the end of the day earned about RM 75. Minus what i spent on shopping at Spring on the same day,,,, it become negative figures. Extreme range man!! phew~~~Any1 can teach me how to control the way of spending money??

Friday.. Having lunch with my "boss".. its on her treat..Well, she is really a nice person.. She never fails to share with me her experience in life and giving lotsa useful advice.. Friday night.. Friends are having gathering or reunion i shall say. None of Su Ee, Jessy and me are going. Well, that's not the type of thing for us. *depends on reunion wit who of cos* Weekend nights is always good for family's shopping. Went to Everise, Sarawak Plaza then off to the Bata shop besides McD to hunt for sport shoes. Mum has been spending a lot on my expenses lately.. Hundreds after hundreds. Paiseh oso la.. already working yet still spending her money.. but at least it makes me realise how noble my mother is.. haha.. Spent two hundred plus tonight.. finally finish preparing Xmas present for xxx.. I knew it might not be the best present but i rili did try my best to think wats the best buy for that person dy.. For the 1 who has to give me 1, i know how hard isit to think of wad to give. To help u lessen ur burden, crack less ur brain, kill less ur brain cell, i shall say i don want any hand/home-made present pls. LOL.. but if u wana giv, apa boleh buat.. accept nia lo.. Oh ya, receive a shocking and bad news today.. damn disappointed loh.. haih.. but then i have to put myself in other people's shoe oso la.. just try to accept the news nia lo since nothg can change it.. Enuf of my blah.. Nites~

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Chlo_e at 12/19/2008 10:33:00 PM

Random~

I feel like SHOUTING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... okay.. sorry for being so random,, people.. life has been upside down all this while.. i need entertaiment so much.. too desperate liao =.="""""

I wana sing it out loud!!!!

I wana get drunk and forget the pain for a moment!! !!

I wana get high and dance all i could!

There's a lot more random things i feel like doing now..right at the moment.. I wana go to the beach and shout all i can.. i wana jump into the sea *despite im gona drown for sure cus i cant swim at all*.. i should come back to the real world now. gotta sleep now. Goodnight.

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Chlo_e at 12/16/2008 09:40:00 PM

Tiring Tuesday~

Today me went to Kindy again.. Cus Kwee said that she felt quite lazy wana go and she is tired.. Since im free then i agree lo..working at kindy its like being a nanny of so many kids.. kids of all sorts of character.. naughty, crying non-stop, pestering u all the time, etc.. rili give me a headache.. kept on shouting until omos no voice dy.. omg.. my voice is the root where my money grows leh.. ish...wat a waste shouting at the kids, whom the louder u shout, the more excited they get.. sweat.. so i choose not to stay there for full day.. went home.. sleep a while then off to bookshop to help my student to buy revision books, then off to work again..

JJ's showcase is tonight!! Miss it out since im only free on 730 pm onwards.. no mood to watch it oso anyway.. it's being carried out at KPCA if im not mistaken.. the place where me & him ever watched Cao Ge's showcase last year.. the day i will never forget.. Anyhoo, thx to Jimmy Chin for offering us, the bloggers, free tix..and sorry for wasting ur credit for the sms and at the end i din even turn up.. lols..

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Chlo_e at 12/16/2008 08:30:00 PM

Rain~

Im at home alone now.. HOME ALONE..lols.. the rest of my family had gone out for dinner.. how could they left me out.. sob sob... how mean they are.. luckily im not out with them oso lar..cus its rili raining damn heavily out there.. Tonight is my first attempt of driving under super duper heavy rains at night.. the road is kinda half flooded dy.. come to think of it, quite scary la to drive alone in heavy rains..plus i cant rili drive properly at night..

Blur to the max~

Well, raining always gimme ( i think not only me la, most people would have the undergo the same thg too..lols) a kind of ...a kind of.. or i shall say lead me astray to the situation where my mind would wander off..think of emo emo stuff.. listening to the song played in radio "那一天手心里的爱我放不开等一个人多么孤单我一分钟又一分钟在忍耐" and "请记得我会深深的爱着你不是说说而已".. *gigantic sigh*

I hope all those memories could just be wipe off like the pic above..

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Chlo_e at 12/16/2008 08:09:00 PM

Santa, can u hear me?

Ooh yeah

Last night I took a walk in the snow

Couples holding hands, places to go

Seems like everyone but me is in love

Santa, can you hear me ?

I sign my letter that I sealed with a kiss

I send it off and just said this

I know exactly what I want this year

Santa, can you hear me ?

I want my baby, baby

I want someone to love me

someone to holdMaybe, MaybeHe'll be all my own in a big red bow

Santa, can you hear me ?

I have been so good this year

And all I want is one thing

Tell me my true love is here

He's all I want just for me

Underneath my Christmas tree

I’ll be waiting here

Santa that’s my only wish this year.

Christmas Eve, I just can’t sleep.

Will I be wrong for taking a peek ?

Cause I heard that you're coming to town.

Santa, can you hear me ?

I really hope that you're on your way,

with Something special for me in your sleigh.

Ooh please make my wish come true

Santa, can you hear me ?

Ihope my letter reaches you in time

woooo yeahBring me a love I can call all mine

Cause I have been so good,so good this year

Can’t be alone under the mistle toe

he's all i want in a big red bow

Santa, can you hear me ?

I have been so good this year

And all I want is one thing

Tell me my true love is here

He's all I want, just for me

Underneath my Christmas tree

I’ll be waiting hereSanta

, that’s my only wish this year

Ooh Santa

Can you hear me ?

I'll be waiting here..

Santa, that’s my only wish this year

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Chlo_e at 12/15/2008 10:44:00 PM

Results for 08~~

Finally got a day off from work..now that i noe why working people always wanting to say "TGIF".. LOL.. *get wad i mean?? its ok lah if u dun* Actually planned to go Kindy today.. but then i think i should get a rest la.. everyday working will die one ah.. haha.. but stay at home oso not really a good idea.. cus keep on sleep then eat then after eat sleep again.. LOL.. wanted to go out but due to my laziness always tak jadi one.. i noe there's year end sales everywhere.. but then really lazy wana step out from house la..dono y..=.="

Doze off again after lunch today..haha.. what a pig.. i knew i knew.. after a while then remmbered today is the day of result publication!! OMG.. quickly log on to BB.. Phew.. after so much of procastination,, after so much of last minute study, get this kind of result not bad liao lar.. cannot complain too much..hehe.. My foundation year is finally completed!! HOOray^^ time flies.. just in a glance 1 year is gone.. well 16 more days to go into the year 2009! New year new aim new hope!

Im quite satisfied with the whole year results EXCEPT Innovation & Change.. what a sucky subjects man... During our sem, no notes no tips are given..and for the sem of engineering student they get a stack of notes for revision man..*from wad i heard la* so unfair isnt it? hish...

A year of hard work finally gone.. Lets review a bit on my report book for the year 2008...hehe

Summer Semester

Malaysian Studies ---> HD

Moral Studies ---> HD

Semester I (GPA=3.75)

English & Communication (I) ---> D

General Mathematics ---> HD

Information Technology ---> HD

Economic ---> D

Innovation & Change ---> C ( It spoils everytg!!!!!Shiat!!!!)

Semester II (GPA=3.92)

English & Communication (II) ---> D

Marketing ---> HD (Ma favourite subject..thk god i din dissapoint Mr.Petrus..lol)

Accounting ---> HD (Despite i hate this subject from the starting, still put a lot of effort on it lar.. Thanks to Miss Janice..)

Law ---> HD

Overall i have got CGPA of 3.83.. hurm ok la.. but still i cannot accept the reality that i have got a C.. ka na sai.. thanks to that teacher.. i will remmber for life.. for sure i will!!!.duh~

Congratulates every1.. especially to those in my class.. its my pleasure to study in a class with u guys...*particularly not all la* And to my dearest gang too.. enjoy the moment chit-chating in the library and laugh like hell when we are supposed to do revision.. lols..

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Chlo_e at 12/15/2008 02:06:00 PM

美梦成真~

你说你仔细考虑过我不是你等的人你说总会有那一天你会等到那个人我心里面有许多话突然之间不想说我忽然觉得有点累我忽然觉得我好累难道做的都白费那究竟是个什么样的人难道会比我对你更认真 ? 那究竟是个什么样的人难道会比我对你更情深? 或许根本没那个人或许梦幻最完美但如果你愿沉醉梦幻我仍祝你美梦成真

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Chlo_e at 12/14/2008 11:21:00 PM

請原諒我~

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾

你的永久已不屬於我

默默低頭那時我很多話哽在喉嚨

你的笑你的快樂或許我愛太多想太多

我能感受他比我適合

愛放了手

我偽裝冷漠

逼你先說分手

請原諒我原諒我不成熟

請原諒我好想自私將你佔有

你的寂寞就給我承受

換你過更好的生活

愛過恨過哭過

也笑過

親吻過你的脆弱

其實我比誰都要懦弱

原諒我必須假裝愛錯

別讓時間逗留

我怕說不出口

心痛

愛原來有捨得

我難過

我才懂

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Chlo_e at 12/14/2008 10:36:00 PM

Boring Sunday~

Went for breakfast with Ben..then accompany him to Sarawak Plaza to search for present for his "mou mou ren"..LOL.. Then met up my family at Jalan Song for lunch.. And i missed out the time to send condolence money*white money*(dono wad is it called in english) to Su Ee's grandpa funeral..Sorry my dear.. but its the thought that counts ryt ryt? hehe.. plus i cant really go to place like funeral, graveyard or even hospital.. i fainted 1ce at hospital during a visit there to see my aunt after her operation.. i saw a shadow fly by then blur for a moment.. when i was awake, uncle was busy fanning me with newspaper and mum busy putting on medicated oil to my forehead..lol.. more like im the patient.. since then im phobia of hospital..

Well, life is really really that fragile.. the news of her ah kong passed away rili kept me stunned for a moment.. knew the news from Ning Jian cus we were planning to go out together to temple since that day is the 15th of lunar calendar. Ning Jian mentioned that life is a like a candle so i must learn to appreciate him more. That message make me laugh like hell.. haha.. yea.. i agree.. life is short..life is unpredictable.. u might be reading my blog now, who knows there will be a day u came to my blog, see no updates for such a long time, then u realise im forever gone.. lols.. it is definitely easier said than well done. People often say that we must appreciate people around us.. but how many of us can actually act it out? Despite i know i must cherish what i have, especially a good and caring mum who dotes so much on me.. still i often be rude to her, make her angry.. often wen i wanted to show to her how much i appreciated and love her, there will always be unpredictable things that happen.. and with that, i repeat my mistakes all over again. I know she might read this post someday.. just not sure when that day will arrive.. Mum, thanks for everytg.. I don wana regret over spilt milks.. i rili dono how to show u that i love u.. just pray to Lord that HE gives u everytg u want, pray that ur health stay good like owes, happy happy everyday...

The second person that i would like to appreciate is .... i guess no need me say most of u oso know who is it la.. i really wish there will be a day that i can prove to u i have changed.. no longer childish like the past.. i know 1 year is not long enough to mould a mature character.. but this 1 lonely year is enough for me to rewind what have i done during those old times.. those memories never failed to bring laughter and sadness into my life.. nobody knows better than me the feeling of wanting to appreciate and cherish some1 but never have the chance to do so.. sigh sigh... there's still a long way to go in life.. i cant possibly give up on the whole forest just bcos of that particular tree..thats wad i have been hearing for umpteen times.. from friends, dad and mum, even his mum... sometimes i rili think that it's true i should give myself another chance and forget him.. i thought i have sort things out completely.. but then wen it comes to certain time of emoing, tears will roll down without me myself realising it at all.. keeping on track with ur latest news rili kept me heartbroken.. knowing tat u are back to Kuching, the feeling of hoping to meet u,whilst at the same time, fear that i might lost control of my own feelings.. it rili hurts my heart.. that's part of the reason i choose to stay at home.. i wouldn't wna take the risk to bump into u on streets.. looking at how skinny photo of the current u , i really wonder are u having a hard life @ overseas.. well, those are things that i have been keeping to myself lately.. im rili tired.. there are a lot more things that i wanted to tel u, but just in a sudden of time, i dont feel like doing so anymore.. what's the use of doing so much thg.. sometimes i reli doubt my own brain's capabilities.. y am i so damn foolish.. I know there must be a reason God doing this to me.. i knew...perhaps love stuff rili not a thing for some1 so stubborn (as in devoted) like me.. haiz.. hope that everytg will end soon.. wish that i could release this burden and step into the year 2009 with brand new hope, brand new feelings.. do lets nature takes it's course^^

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Chlo_e at 12/14/2008 10:24:00 PM

Haircut^^

Lemme introduce to u---> Q-One Professional Hair Care System.. currently using this brand of leave in conditioner.. I think it's gud.. cus it smells damn nice.. haha..Rm 29.50 per bottle..

I knew im a laosy model..haha~

Spot any difference on me?? haha.. just have my hair cut last Saturday.. At Classic Vogue @ Petanak.. Its a random decision anyway.. People say its good to have a change of image if u're having bad mood.. not true at all :( The owner of the saloon, Mr Albert, never fail to give me a nice haircut.. His techinique is good too.. u can try it out if u dun bliv :) plus the price is reasonable!

Like my new haircut :) Too bad i have no skills to blow it back to the way it is after wash..

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Chlo_e at 12/14/2008 09:55:00 PM

Fruitful trip~

After busy indulging myself in work for week and weeks, finally got the chance to relax.. Went to SCV and Damai Resort with sis & sis's fren(under CPA club).. well, its a memorable 1 indeed.. quite fun but im sure it would be more fun if i were there with my own friends... too bad some cannot go that far, some don't like there bcos he can't swin *winks*..wonder hu's that hor.. haha..

Starting to fell in love with mother nature.. esp sun rise & sun set...